i never could get into
comparing feelings to strings
like tying and knots and
connections were somehow
a bad and taboo thing...
these things have always been
the basis of my existence; i built
my strength in connections to other people
and there have always been more than two.

i'm trying to get better
at thinking before i speak:
like normally i would tell you
that i'm deleting all your text messages
even the ones that say 'love' in them
and the ones where we're making plans
and i'm erasing all the memories
from earlier today and how
you asked me my ring size
and we talked about fetishes
but now i won't because i know
that saying that
would only make things more awkward
and neither of us needs that right now.

See? growth.