memorizing the lyrics
to that song
          (i don't get pangs anymore--
i sing along. i know every word.
          you promised me we'd fuck with
that song on repeat)
wasn't as easy as
memorizing your body

my tongue folded
over your cock
but i guess
you fucked the words
way back into my throat,
stuck them there with
jets of semen(t).
at that point i was never easy
to understand... always
forgetting words, and then
clogged vocal chords.